Need

I have terrible urges to rant, about sad things that tug my smile down just a little bit every time I crack one...but I don't feel like it.

I like being happy. Ive missed being happy.
For such a long time I feel like I forgot who I was, and the strength I actually have. Well, its back now ha ha, and I'm enjoying it a lot.

=D I really hope I get to go to warped tour this year, I already have a whole mob of people to go with. Too bad Queens of The Stone Age wont be playing, I would have liked to see Josh Homme live. Oh well.

So I have been thinking of my future, and a lot of it, involves the people I know now. Which normally doesn't happen because I always lose my friends but I'm really ready to just move on with this. Hopefully, Ill have my shot at being a game designer, or...if I could scrape together the mental capacity, I will get to be a chemist.
I'm really going for chemist...probably not though.

(Yes, I did draw that, by the way. Its for my "brother" Ben, and his boyfriend Jake.)

Here we go

Mh how to start?

Dear Diary seems a little silly.

I'll just...go.

Today...was amazing. Nothing extremely interesting happened, but it was still a great day. I'm usually alone on valentines day, and if this is how fun it is to have a valentine, I hope I never lose him. We went to see a movie and get ice cream...hang out at Starbucks...just being around him makes me happy though.

Let me explain, my boyfriend, is really cool. His name is William. So normally when I mention "he" or "him" as a general term, I mean William.

I really like him, he cant see why though. He did break up with me the start of the school year...that hurt...but I just...wasn't mad at him. I'm sure it has something to do with my mother teaching me while I was growing up that when you love someone, you accept there attention no matter what. So, we stayed friends and I ditched another silly boy and he asked me out.
I have to admit...I hope very much that he doesn't leave me again, but I know it wont last forever. I can only dream that it does. For now though, I'm happy again.